[Sunday December 20th, 2009 at 4:19pm] madamesamarell Reason 3983983 that I hate the winter? My skin literally has no moisture on it's own. I look all patchy and shit. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Sunday December 20th, 2009 at 1:10pm] happyirish312 We spent our first night in the new house last night, and with the exception of me being a spoiled brat, it was wonderful :) I only say the spoiled brat thing because I have never had anything but central heat in my house, and I couldn't sleep all night because of the noises that the baseboard heat made. I couldn't take it!! I'm so used to sleeping in dead silence, that any noise keeps me wide awake. But it was great nonetheless, especially with the tree decorated and the wood stove going and the blizzard and whatnot. Jay made us chicken parmesan last night, and then pancakes and bacon this morning. Good thing he cooks, because if it was up to me we'd have cheese sandwiches all day and night... not even kidding haha. We decided that after we get on our feet a little more and save up and pay off some more of the house, we're gonna try the whole house flipping thing. I keep seeing great opportunities for rental properties or flippers, but obviously we can't do 2 mortgages just yet. I'm excited though... I loved every minute of researching houses and going through them, and I know Jay loves seeing how much his hard work has paid off. Next we're going to enclose the breezeway and make it into an actual room. Obviously I'm wasting time right now writing all this. I have two more finals to study for... both biology classes. Gross. I wish they weren't so late, because then I think I would enjoy the holidays a little more. Oh well. Maybe someday I won't be this busy. 0 >> reply >> edit

Legitimate post [Friday December 18th, 2009 at 10:36pm] madamesamarell [ mood | FREEZING ] So apparently my last long post didn't make it on here, which is depressing, as it did take me quite awhile to write out. What's new on my end? I get my biopsy and colposcopy results back on Tuesday to figure out how severe the (definite) precancerous cells are. I don't know if it's endometrial or cervical, but the doctor said there is definitely something wrong. Fiore decided because there was a rock in my oil pan, that they are not covering my car under warranty, so... it's either pay $5,000 to get the entire bottom end replaced, or go through my insurance company, and watch my insurance rate skyrocket. I could fight it, but that could take months. It would totally be worth it if I lived so conveniently close to work, but I don't. Well... an appraiser will be out to see my car by Tuesday. I have to pick up my rental in the meantime, and just wait pretty much. I miss my vehicle. I get a little thing for 30 days, so... maybe they'll give me something at least safe for the snow. Not that they would give me something COMPLETELY wicked, like a hummer! The last two weeks without my car have been nice, but a pain. I don't like feeling dependent on people one bit. Last week I stayed with Jeremy for 2-3 days, which was actually really surprising. Him and I usually only see each other Fridays and Saturdays outside of work. It was really nice to see him within the week, and such a blessing to be able to wake up and go to bed next to him. He's really such a compassionate, sincere and genuine person. This week he mainly asked me to stay with him because he knows that I'm really stressed out about my test results. I stayed with him 3 nights this week as well. The doctor was confident when she told me it was only a matter of finding out how severe it is. I know that cervical cancer and problems are common in my family, so I'm expecting some bad news regardless. I've been really good with this though. I only had the "I'm going to die" moment twice. Whatever happens I'll deal with it. I have a wonderful support system emotionally. My mother and Tom, Jeremy, my brother and my friends always are willing to help and do whatever they can. My worst case scenario would be to find out that I a) have full blown cancer and b) that I am unable to have children. I don't know what I would do if I heard either of these things. For now I am going to stay realistic and positive. I can't go through life worrying about everything. In other news, I still have to get my Christmas shopping done. Today I finished my shopping for Jeremy, and I just have to get a couple more (5 ish) things. I have some vacation time which I am SUPER excited about Tuesday and Wednesday. Normally I would work on these days, but I never get a vacation. The last time that I did take some time off, it was to get a portion of my cervix removed... The time before that was because of traffic court, and I went back in afterward. The time before that I had pink eye in both eyes, and I couldn't see without pain. The time before that was the hangover of death. That's really the only time I have taken off in the ENTIRE year. So... at the end of the year, I'm going to take a nice long 5 days to myself. Get some shopping, crafting, and relaxing done, and it will be BEAUTIFUL! But... for tonight and tomorrow, I'm going to try and get 13 more hours of work to get myself to 60 hours this week. I need the money for my deductible, rental car deposit, Christmas presents, medical bills and ... some grocery shopping money. Life is pretty expensive and stressful lately, but... regardless of that I'm alright. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Friday December 18th, 2009 at 10:09pm] madamesamarell I am so annoyed with the 40 million holiday plans that require running around. I'm proud of my gifts, but I have way more. Need to pick up my rental car! Woot insurance! 0 >> reply >> edit

[Monday December 14th, 2009 at 5:05pm] madamesamarell When it rains... It pours. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Sunday December 13th, 2009 at 1:57am] madamesamarell My love took me to see A Christmas Carol tonight. He wore his argyle sweater, I wore a dress. He came and picked me up, took me there and home. It was wonderful! I love this life. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Tuesday December 8th, 2009 at 8:53pm] madamesamarell It's been awhile. Car is getting fixed sometime with in this century. I hate being carless. I hate not knowing where I'm spending the night, and who I have to inconvenience. I keep gaining weight. I hate you birth control. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Sunday December 6th, 2009 at 10:01pm] madamesamarell Thank God my car is still under warranty. Hopefully they can fix it this week! If not... I'm fucked, and don't have a car. 0 >> reply >> edit

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